Trip, Part 2
May. 10th, 2001 06:14 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
singularity75I'm going to try and just sum up what all happened on the trip, especially since it's been over three weeks now my memory is starting to fade a bit ;)
During the time I was at home, I spent much of it visiting with my best friend Wen. She and I have known each other for about ten years now and we both feel as close as family or even more so. She's like the sister I never had, and I'm like the brother she never had. We've stuck by each other through many turmoils and trust each other implicitely.
I don't remember much about exact dates, so I'll just talk about things that did happen. When I wasn't visiting relatives/family, I was almost always with friends, hence why I wasn't around much online during my trip. I only had a few hours to myself periodically during the trip since I was always so busy. I spent about a weeks worth of nights sleeping at other people's houses. Lots of fun was always involved.
As for family, I saw my grandparents a few times, saw my mom twice and my grandmother on my mom's side once. I only grudgingly accepted going to see my grandmother on my mom's side since she annoys me too much. In fact, she doesn't like me much either. We only tolerate each other because we are related by blood. I went with my younger brother Dave who gets along with her so I was able to sit quietly most of the time. I was glad to leave when we did since the cigarette smoke there was starting to joke me and was making my sore throat worse. In fact, the next day my sore throat was worse the next due to all the smoke I inhaled. Fun stuff. I also saw my mom for some time, including a dinner. I try to be nice to her, but I still don't like her. Long story short, I don't get along with her much due to her actions a few years ago. She doesn't know why I'm so upset with her at all. Too bad, all I ever wanted was an apology, but I want her to do so because she means it, not because she feels she must. I'll never get it of course. Over time my anger will decrease, but it'll take a long time. I can go a long time with never seeing her, that's how strained my relationship with her is.
I saw my grandparents a few times. I wish I could have spent more time visiting them. I really like going there and I really miss them. It's worse when I know my grandfather will probably die soon. But I'll be back in ON in 3.5 months. For how long I stay then, I don't know. My future isn't certain at the moment, but my stay there may be permanent with London being the possible long term place. But that's another story.
I was able to see my Dad a fair bit during the trip. I wish it could have been more, but it was difficult with all of our obligations and his work schedule(shift work). But we saw bits of each other over several days during those busy times and a fair bit on a few days.
As for my brothers, I saw Dave(the youngest) a lot since he lives a home still and we get along better than ever. Normally we get along for about a week or two, then get on each others neves. But this time, after three weeks we were still getting along great! Maybe the anger/resentment/etc has faded enough for us to be around each other a lot. I certainly hope so. As for my other brother, Kevin(the middle child), I only saw him a few times for various reasons. It's frustrating. I haven't seen my neices since last May and even then, only once for a short time. I'd LOVE to see them again. I have a picture of them as part of an Xmas gift and I treasure it above all else I received for Xmas.
Well, that's enough for now. I'll do another update in a day or two. I'm trying not to clog those friends pages too badly for you all. I do long enough entries most of the time as it is ;)
During the time I was at home, I spent much of it visiting with my best friend Wen. She and I have known each other for about ten years now and we both feel as close as family or even more so. She's like the sister I never had, and I'm like the brother she never had. We've stuck by each other through many turmoils and trust each other implicitely.
I don't remember much about exact dates, so I'll just talk about things that did happen. When I wasn't visiting relatives/family, I was almost always with friends, hence why I wasn't around much online during my trip. I only had a few hours to myself periodically during the trip since I was always so busy. I spent about a weeks worth of nights sleeping at other people's houses. Lots of fun was always involved.
As for family, I saw my grandparents a few times, saw my mom twice and my grandmother on my mom's side once. I only grudgingly accepted going to see my grandmother on my mom's side since she annoys me too much. In fact, she doesn't like me much either. We only tolerate each other because we are related by blood. I went with my younger brother Dave who gets along with her so I was able to sit quietly most of the time. I was glad to leave when we did since the cigarette smoke there was starting to joke me and was making my sore throat worse. In fact, the next day my sore throat was worse the next due to all the smoke I inhaled. Fun stuff. I also saw my mom for some time, including a dinner. I try to be nice to her, but I still don't like her. Long story short, I don't get along with her much due to her actions a few years ago. She doesn't know why I'm so upset with her at all. Too bad, all I ever wanted was an apology, but I want her to do so because she means it, not because she feels she must. I'll never get it of course. Over time my anger will decrease, but it'll take a long time. I can go a long time with never seeing her, that's how strained my relationship with her is.
I saw my grandparents a few times. I wish I could have spent more time visiting them. I really like going there and I really miss them. It's worse when I know my grandfather will probably die soon. But I'll be back in ON in 3.5 months. For how long I stay then, I don't know. My future isn't certain at the moment, but my stay there may be permanent with London being the possible long term place. But that's another story.
I was able to see my Dad a fair bit during the trip. I wish it could have been more, but it was difficult with all of our obligations and his work schedule(shift work). But we saw bits of each other over several days during those busy times and a fair bit on a few days.
As for my brothers, I saw Dave(the youngest) a lot since he lives a home still and we get along better than ever. Normally we get along for about a week or two, then get on each others neves. But this time, after three weeks we were still getting along great! Maybe the anger/resentment/etc has faded enough for us to be around each other a lot. I certainly hope so. As for my other brother, Kevin(the middle child), I only saw him a few times for various reasons. It's frustrating. I haven't seen my neices since last May and even then, only once for a short time. I'd LOVE to see them again. I have a picture of them as part of an Xmas gift and I treasure it above all else I received for Xmas.
Well, that's enough for now. I'll do another update in a day or two. I'm trying not to clog those friends pages too badly for you all. I do long enough entries most of the time as it is ;)
